Time was Tough but i conquered..
These 3 months have been immensely tough and hard for me. I was getting insecure, impatient and negative towards life. Overcoming my own fear, nerves and scary emotions was getting impossible for me. The fear of losing my routine lifestyle, my busy schedule, my happy hours made me fragile. I used to convince myself everyday that its a bad dream and i am gonna get over with it the next morning. But it never happened. It was depressing, painful but a real thing effecting my life. I wasn't able to express the feeling that was residing in my heart to anybody because i failed to communicate and i had no courage to make others unhappy around me. Especially the ones who wanted a smile on my face, who knew i was a strong person and who walked every mile of this bad phase with me. Finally, I gathered myself and promised to follow what i preach that is "being optimistic".
I am happy I conquered this battle of emotional crisis where the mind and body were on the verge of divorce.. I remember, as a kid once i forced myself to perform on the stage and conquered my stage fright. Every body then claimed "she is a confident girl". Nobody had an idea of the efforts that was put in to win that title of a confident girl. Similarly this time too i forced myself and i know it made me stronger.
But i think this weak moment of my life made me greedy for more love and attention i received from everybody whom i love so much. i don't need to mention their names as they all know that they are just so special to me. I feel that the extra pounds that i have gained during this time is not because of the medicines but because of the excessive love that was showered on me. Its a small space to thank you all. hence i wont brag more :)
P.S: Your presence, love, care and positive attitude made me stronger and healthier as if nothing happened to me. I wish to hold your hand and continue this journey and follow your wise words to achieve that state of "best" from "better".
These 3 months have been immensely tough and hard for me. I was getting insecure, impatient and negative towards life. Overcoming my own fear, nerves and scary emotions was getting impossible for me. The fear of losing my routine lifestyle, my busy schedule, my happy hours made me fragile. I used to convince myself everyday that its a bad dream and i am gonna get over with it the next morning. But it never happened. It was depressing, painful but a real thing effecting my life. I wasn't able to express the feeling that was residing in my heart to anybody because i failed to communicate and i had no courage to make others unhappy around me. Especially the ones who wanted a smile on my face, who knew i was a strong person and who walked every mile of this bad phase with me. Finally, I gathered myself and promised to follow what i preach that is "being optimistic".
I am happy I conquered this battle of emotional crisis where the mind and body were on the verge of divorce.. I remember, as a kid once i forced myself to perform on the stage and conquered my stage fright. Every body then claimed "she is a confident girl". Nobody had an idea of the efforts that was put in to win that title of a confident girl. Similarly this time too i forced myself and i know it made me stronger.
But i think this weak moment of my life made me greedy for more love and attention i received from everybody whom i love so much. i don't need to mention their names as they all know that they are just so special to me. I feel that the extra pounds that i have gained during this time is not because of the medicines but because of the excessive love that was showered on me. Its a small space to thank you all. hence i wont brag more :)
P.S: Your presence, love, care and positive attitude made me stronger and healthier as if nothing happened to me. I wish to hold your hand and continue this journey and follow your wise words to achieve that state of "best" from "better".
